I wonder if you feel the same way too ......

As expected? I guess so, I’m not certain how long will it last too…
The feeling is just as if your experiencing a stage fright, your throat tightens, you’re knees turn weak and arms became heavy and your heart feels as if there’s something pounding on it. Once again, the overwhelming emotions just conquer me leaving me with no doors to escape. Having said that, my heart still yearns for …..

I miss it, I miss it all, everything, every single thing that I will never get back anymore.
It can be quite funny sometimes how we perceive something at a certain period of our life.
I definitely miss it badly…
I can give up everything, literally everything just to repeat it all over again.
But I guess that won’t be enough…..
‘’ Halloween’’ is approaching… Time flies….




Happy birthday ‘’friend’’! I guess only a few will know this…. Ha..

When you leave I lost a part of me, is that so hard to believe?

Have a sudden urge to blog again. I went over to this very beautiful and peaceful place over the last weekend and I really find peace there, it’s like a total cut off from the hectic life that I have. I wish I could stay there for a certain period of time just to do some soul searching. I’ve thoughts to discontinue this blog but the stubborn me just feel that I should continue… Thinking of how I even start this habit of blogging and how this blog is actually created......

I thought that I am stronger until ….. A sudden splurge of emotions overwhelms my whole body, I felt weak and breathless, and the sensation spreads till the tip of my fingers. I try to finish the plate of rice that I bought, but every spoon of rice that I tired to sallow is just to fight against the emotions that are gushing out from my mouth. I felt so lost and I struggle to fight against the urge and anxiety within me. I’ve got this urge to call out your name, to approach you just like how I’ve use to. But my senses hold me back and it reminds me that everything is different now. My heart shrunk and I can feel the short sharp pain like as if something is piercing through it. I yearn to see her but at the same time I wish I’ll not. I miss you..

(The Script- The Man Who Can't Be Moved)

Lost without your love..

All I know is to follow my heart but I still end up being caught and entangled within the same time frame.
I do not understand why it is so strange that my heart can’t stop yearning for you.
It has been a torture to fight against the reoccurring memories that never seems to stop flowing in my mind.
It is a vicious cycle that I’ve to go through each day, to put on a mask and pretend that everything is just fine. It’s tiring, very tiring…..

In a blink of an eye, the month of September is over. To sum up, it wasn’t great at all.
It’s so easy for us to gain something at the same time to lose something. Sadly I’ve lost a part of me.

Escaping from reality...

I should have stopped this long ago but I think that it’s not up for me to choose.
Are you there? Will you be reading this?
Could these all just be a bad dream, just a nightmare?
Ha ha ha, I must be kidding.
NO, I’m not!
Just so you know………………