Same old thing...

School gonna start next week, damn I didn’t get the elective that I want, so which means to say it’ll be a four day week for me again and I’ve to go through the same stupid shit again which is to go to different class every day. Argh, it’s very troublesome because I’ve to remember which class to go damn. Surprisingly, I’ve seen before at least 20 out of 25 of my classmates for each class. All familiar faces, no choice SHL too small. I officially give up on my I phone applications. I’ll shall not touch anything and just use it to call and sms.

Incomplete..

The chorus of this old song keep running in my head . And it takes me half of the day to figure out what’s the title of the song.

So, school gonna start next week. Previously, before school reopen I’ll be pretty excited. But I’m not feeling it all now. Come to think of it I can even foresee me dragging myself to school every morning with my CMI laptop.
Finally manage to import my contacts from my SIM card, but it’s not what I want. In the end, I key in one by one for 2 hours……… -_-
Lastly, I can also foresee that my ankle will give way anytime soon. Ouch….

Apple = trouble ?

Hmm, went down to the com centre at Somerset to collect my I phone. Waited for like 3 hours! But it’s worth the wait I guess. But currently I’m having some problem of downloading some applications damn, anybody who knows me know that I suck at gadgets and any other computer software.
Damn, I spent 4 hours last night and only manage to sync a handful of songs and photos over, damn pathetic. Any volunteers to teach me how to use apple applications? Argh… I’ve still yet to manage to import my contacts from my SIM card. Any idea where to get any nice pouch? Or whatever shield you call it, I just like to get something decent to protect it from my sweaty palms.
Oh, I’ve yet to start on my PP. Still in search of inspiration and motivation -_-! Next few weeks gonna be freaking busy, have got trainings to go, two competition running on the same time, PP to complete, work, spiritual commitment and start of sem 2 but at least it helps to put some things off my mind when I’m busy. On the other hand, it seems to get worse instead of improving because most probably to escape from the problem will not work out, it’ll just cover up the problem and make it seems like it’s solved.

I’ve tried, but why is it still coming after me? Time flies, yet another weekend is over. Mixed feelings.
Good night.

It’s 3am and I can’t seem to fall asleep, come across a few songs at youtube. Songs, I love to listen to songs just like anyone else and it can bring back a lot of memories either that or it’ll bring me back to that particular phase of my life. There’s one particular song which I really love and the impact of it is pretty strong. Chris Brown- With you.
This song happened to be very popular at that particular period of my life, and I still can remember clearly how you sang the chorus part ‘’ with you, with you, with you ‘’ in that dumb way just to cheer me up. It’s damn funny and cute and never fail to put a smile on my face. Plus many more occasions. Thinking of it now it’s bitter sweet. I can’t seem to up load it here due to the embedding is being disabled. Anyway, it’s a popular song so I guess everyone will have it your playlists. Here's the link if you happen not to be one of them. http://www.youtube.com/watchv=CXQZ7VCAAU&feature=related
In addition, there’s this old classic song the lyrics is super nice sang by Whitney Houston- I will always love you. Other then ignoring the high key part where it can be quite scary at times especially you listening it at this particular time of the day, it’s nice and sort of sums up how I feel at the moment.
Alright, I think I’ve go and try to catch some sleep while listening to the song at repeat mood till I fall asleep.

'' always be my baby '' David Cook

Tired, drained. Gonna turn in early tonight. What are you doing? How I wish Icould spend the night watching the fireworks display with..... Goodnight, rest well.

How much do I have to say?
Nothing new, how can I stop the memories from haunting me each and every day?
For some reasons I know why, I can’t stop myself from reminiscing the past and read those texts that we use to send each other. Images of you just keep floating in my mind. Good night......

Well, the thing which kills me actually keeps me alive and ongoing. Funny isn’t it? Ok maybe you guys won’t get what I mean. The thoughts of it just keep recurring on my mind 24/7. Cold and out of breath is how it feels. Good night…

I’ve got lots to say but I think it’s better left unsaid. And perhaps there is not point saying it all. It has been quite some time but I’m proud to say I’m still stuck and nothing really changes except my perception of certain things in life. It’s truly a great learning journey, a painful one, a one that drains away all my strength I have. Just so you know.

I’ve got lots to say but I think it’s better left unsaid. And perhaps there is not point saying it all. It has been quite some time but I’m proud to say I’m still stuck and nothing really changes except my perception of certain things in life. It’s truly a great learning journey, a painful one, a one that drains away all my strength I have. Just so you know.

Me..

Everybody’s busy but I’m not. Tried very hard walking out of the door but I couldn’t. Stuck and lost forevermore. The weekend’s seems plain and dull. Nothing to look forward to, unlike before. Nonetheless, I still......

So far away..

Decided to take some time off and just be alone this evening, it have been ages since I ride my bicycle. Therefore I decide to cycle to east coast park for a ride alone, at the same time to put some things off my mind just for the few hours. I always enjoy riding along the coastline soak yourself in the warm sunshine, feel the strong wind blowing against you and enjoy the great scenery just make me feel free and relax. Oh not forgetting the familiar BBQ smell coming from the BBQ pits.
Manage to snap some pictures along my way using my pathetic 2 mega pixel hand phone camera.



( Near to the end of ECP)









(Freaking long stretch of road towards Changi village alongside the infamous Changi Coast Road and Changi Airport)






(A glimpse of T3 from far)




(Time to head back home. )

Pretty exhausted after the ride, I hope I’ll be able to turn in earlier tonight. Goodnight.. Sigh...

Reminiscing the past....

Spend one whole day doing nothing productive.
I’ve yet to learn and acknowledge how things change in our everyday life. Your day can just be as peaceful and the next thing you know there might be a great calamity ahead of you the next day.
I’m still lost and trapped in between the transition.

'' And the hearts all over the world tonight, said the hearts all over the world tonight.'....' - Chris Brown

Gone....

First day of my holidays and it suck.
Have got PP to complete but I’m not doing anything about it.
Just came back from a funeral. It’s a typical Taoist funeral, each table will be served some food and most of the people there enjoy eating the scrumptious meal prepared. I’ve got no idea why, but I just don’t have the appetite to eat. I feel like as if it’s so out of place. Aren’t we supposed to mourn for the death of the decease instead? Apart from that some of them still can gamble there right in front of the dead. Hmm, I find it so weird. I guess it’s another effect of modernization.
Anyway, I guess I’m suffering from insomnia. I can’t sleep although I’m physically worn-out by the gym session during the day time. Streams of thoughts just keep running in my head although I’ve tried hard not to even think of it. I wonder how long I will be living my life like this. Why is it so difficult? I don't know what else I can do. Sigh ..

?

I’m tired, very tired. Tired of doing things which I’m suppose to do.
Time just passes day by day and nothing changes.
I wish I could go for a short retreat at some Hawaiian beach resort.


'' I'm here without you baby, but you're still with me in my dreams.. '' - 3 Doors Down

Everything stays the same.....

9 of August 2008, how I wish could spent the day like last year.
I don’t know where should I start from, or how should I even react.
Time, time, time, is it all it takes? For now, I’m certain that it’s not.
Deep down, I wish I could leave everything behind and go to a place far from here, to hide and to deceive myself on certain things.

I'm sorry...

Smile because it happened, don't cry because it's over.

It’s gonna be a dull and repetitive entry again.
I don’t know how to solve this problem, I guess I shall find a corner in my brain and hide it for the time being. I do not know how to be fine when I’m not. At the same time, life has to continue. I’ve done numerous mistakes which leads to the up most undesirable consequences.
After next Monday, semester 1 will officially come to an end. It started off with much enthusiasm and excitement but it ended off with great disappointment and distress. It’s one of my greatest learning journeys in life I guess? Or it is just a part of growing up and life? I’m totally clueless.
I remember someone told me this quote, ‘’ don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened’’ I hope it’s correct , correct me if I’m wrong.
Sometimes, it’s quite funny how we perceive certain things in life. When the worse things happen, we will lie to ourselves that there’s something greater or better lying ahead of us, thus we should move on and stop grieving on what that have happened. But it’s that true? We don’t know but we choose to believe our own lies.

One missing piece...

For everything that I’m doing currently just don’t seems right every day just seems so grey and monotonous , it’s that kind of feeling where you feel like there’s something missing something have been taken away from you. Like when you’re out with your friends physically but your soul is not there. I don’t wish to be a nuisance too. I’m sorry but I can’t help it. Time can’t erase this feeling so strong.
Alight, goodnight everyone….

Time flies .......

Time flies, next week will be the last week of AY08/09 semester 1.
Quite a number of major events happened and out of a sudden kaaaa boom! Everything has ended just in a blink of an eye.
I’ve get to know some fabulous classmate and facilitator. Again, we can’t expect everything to last forever. We’ll be having a change of class next semester.
Certainly, some of us will go through or experience some things that will change the course of our life. And sadly, I’m that kind of person who can’t adapt to changes that well.
Well, what to do? Life still go on and nothing will slow down and wait for anyone of us.
I wish I can be stronger in the sense that I can just heck care everything and move on each time, and then we will not get that emotional and feel so fcuk up at times and it applies to everything that have happen during my life time . I guess I should slowly learn and aspire to be like that and I’ll lead a better life without anything to hold me back and I can do whatever I like.

Somewhere over the rainbow..

( awesome jumbo hot dog !)

(what kicks are you rocking today? LOL)

Stay back in school to do PP yesterday. I don’t think things are going well. I’ve never expect this to happen. Nevertheless, I will be there whenever you need me, I will go all out, no doubt and unconditional. I wish you well =)